Do i hate my friends or am i jus bipolar?

Well my two "bffs" and i got really close this year and now somehow i dont see it that way anymore. first of all cuz they would mess around with me but i didnt find it funny. actually more than half of the things they said was offensive to me. Then they kept secrets from me and at lunch they would talk about things that i had no i didn't know about. i was really upset cuz i felt like a tag-along than a friend. i began to eat with senior girls and they got hurt saying i ditched them when they've done the same to me. i confronted them and even made one of em cry. we supposedly made up but they never apologized for what they did. i had to apologize for being a "hypocrite" and "buthurt". now the say the love me and that were a trio, but im not so sure. they pretty much stil act the same except for the insults, but at times i enjoy our time together, and most of time i hate being around them and i wish they would leave or i could have first lunch and hang out with my real friends, the ones iv known since middle school. please help i feel terrible and need some advice..sorry for the long story :(